How shouldn’t I have loved you my loved one, since what you had was not your choice (A.L.S.).
These are things that happen in life and most likely for a persuasion.
I chose the road of Love, of standing together to fight your illness, of walking together the road that was awaiting you and to be submissive to the one that was coming ahead.
Within our hearts there was not, the keep on suffering, it was better to say
Good-bye to one another for the sake of Love to what was coming ahead
(NCPR – your choice, my approval in His Mercy but May God forgive me if there is anything to be forgiven because to remember it still hurts.)
My prayers on that evening were to ask God to have Mercy on you at all times, especially when you got so restless on that night; and, yours was to make it to the next day as if you knew what was going on, I didn’t. That next day you were going to be tested to be fit with a respiratory device and from there the decision to have the incision for the feeding tube in your stomach.
God ended your suffering, on the night of the 20th of November 2002, at home as you always wanted.
Now you are happy and painless from A.L.S., mostly emotionally than physically as your eyes would convey; me, I have missed you and that’s all I can say, my heart got broken the night you passed away.
It’s been almost three years, three years since then and twenty eight, twenty eight since we met...
There is peace within me, His Peace as well. I am at peace in my mind and
in my heart, along with the thoughts of those days.
I have loved you Jim and hope and pray, that my life be as happy now as God prompts me to stay. May I be granted as well at the end of my days, the Peace and Love that surrounded you forever for me to take; and may my moment be as a quiet as the moment that you left, when your body couldn’t hold you and you fell in my arms instead.
One of God’s blessings as you my husband and me your wife was your independence, as well as mine! And as He answered to my question during my walks at the park: “Peacefully you went from me and right into His arms”!
God bless you Jimmy wherever you are, may you be living in His Grace as I hope we all are.
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Elizabeth McGregor de Morrow
September 26, 2005
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